The fear of hope.
Hope isn't a definitive outcome. Hope comes from wanting a specific conclusion. Now, when the hope is wanting change, and that change is attached to old wounds. It is heavy. Heavy because of past traumas. Your mind states, "How dare you hope for a different outcome when it always leads back to the same ending."
In a way, this passive aggressiveness is protecting what you have left of yourself. What you were force to rebuild because hurt people decided to hurt your innocent self. So that part became bitter, not out of spite, but out of fear. The pain you went through was valid, but no one can take away your strength, confidence, and softness. You use your discernment and move with life. Life has your back as long as the path is for your highest good.
Even if the hope isn't for your highest good. That's OK. You are human. It's not that you don't know it's not for your highest good. Your fears are just bubbling up again, but don't be afraid. We can handle it in a healthy way and keep ourselves safe.
It's not bad to have the fear of hope.